Through a series of events, I somehow came to the conclusion that I should start a blog. Now I will be completely honest and say this is not my first attempt at blogging. For a number of reasons, I have created a few blogs where I tried my hand at recording my thoughts. Some were for class assignments. Others, for pleasure. But through each and every blog cycle I told myself: This is it.
I witnessed so many people start blogs and become these huge pillars of success. At least in my eyes they were. I had these delusions that if I started a blog, maybe I to could get this seemingly elusive piece of the pie. Yes I know, my reasonings were surface, but it's true.
However, through every blog I attempted to start, I inevitably failed. I would post a few decent entries and give myself a huge pat on the back. Then I would sit back and wait for my presumed riches, whatever they may be, to roll in. After a while though, when my views capped at 20 or so, I would get depressed, busy myself with other work,and eventually stop posting.
So as I sat back one night, heavily, ahem, sedated, I began to question a number of things about myself. Chief among my thoughts: Why can't you ever go through with this blogging thing? I racked my brain trying to figure why I could never commit to this, and then the answer sort of struck me: I never reqlly wanted to do it in the first place.
I mean yeah I wanted to do, but I didn't like, want to do it, you know?
Basically, my motives were all off. When I would write a post, it was never truly me. I would write what I thought people wanted to hear. My heart was never really into it. And for all the skills that I have been told I possess as a writer, none of them did me any good when I was unable to connect to the content.
So, on the night previously mentioned, I decided that my outlook on this blogging thing would change. Instead of writing what I thought would get me liked, enabling me to get a piece of this made-up pie, I decided I would try my hand at blogging again, but this time I was writing for two reasons:
1. I have a lot of shit to say
2. I wanted to prove to myself that I could actually go through with this
I do enjoy writing, always have, however, in my years of doing so, rarely have I been given the chance to truly express myself. That is the purpose of this blog: An expression of Kevin.
In the 'about' section of the site, it states the purpose is "shameless self-promotion," and that is true. This site will serves as vehicle for me to promote all the things I love, all the things I hate, and everything else in between.
Now I have no plans of being a fly on the wall forever. I do have hopes of my own. However, I do not see this blog being the stepping stone to that.
Or hell, maybe it will, I don't know. Guess I'll have to see, huh.
"Lets see your 'everything is ok' face"- Bob Belcher